Hello everyone, how are you all? Leave me a comment below letting me know how your day is going.
As the title would suggest… I’m going back to work today… Again. Now the ‘again’ part of the title is because I’ve been through this before this year when I had my first fairly big relapse of the year. I wasn’t off work for as long as this relapse, however my doctor feels that I went back to work too early and should off probably had longer off… But when you get very little money whilst being off sick, it makes it difficult to remain off so therefore I had to go back to work sooner.
I have also done phased return once before as well and again my doctor and many others felt that I rushed going back to work full time and that I should of had a longer phased return period… But once again… Money was the issue and I couldn’t really afford to continue the phased return so I went back to work full time maybe too soon, who knows because at that time I honestly thought I was okay.. I felt a lot better in myself and I thought I was ready to go back full time… You just never know with MS – there’s no explanation as to why we relapse or how long the recovery period will be.. It’s just time.
This time though is a bit different… I’ve had a longer period off work and I really do think it’s benefitted me and my recovery, I did want to go back to work at the end of July but when it came down to it, I just didn’t feel ready so I had another two weeks off work, which has really helped and now I am feeling a lot more stronger and confident to cope with a few hours at work. I’m also going to take my time with phased return too.. I’ve been a lot mor knowledgable with my money this time and have been able to save some money from previous wage slips so I can afford to carry the phased return period for a little longer.
For those of you who are unsure what phased return to work is… It’s basically a schedule discussed with your doctor and manager of how many hours you can cope with when going back to work if you’ve been off for a long period or have been off with problems relating a condition or disability and then liaising with your doctor and manager you gradually increase the hours till eventually you are able to resume to your normal working pattern… some people however may need to reduce their normal working hours due to their health condition – something that I may consider, but like I said before… This condition is unknown and only time will tell how I’m going to feel.
It’s my first day back today and I’m feeling good but also a little nervous, you know those first day back nerves.. I’m very lucky in the fact that majority of my colleagues have stayed in touch with me whilst I’ve been off and are all looking forward to seeing me, which will make going back a lot easier. I’m doing three hours a day at the moment 1-2 which I feel happy and confident with , my anxiety isn’t playing up at the thought of ‘oh what if I can’t cope’ because I’ve decided the hours that I can manage with at the moment.. You have to be strong when you do this.. At the end of the day this is YOUR body, YOUR life and only YOU know how you feel.. Although sometimes for me it’s hard to tell how I feel.
I didn’t know if any of you would like me to document my phased return week by week? Let me know what you think to this idea or anything else you’d like to read. 🙂
I’m feeling positive and ready… So now I’m going to ‘slay’ the day and then after work I have to pop to the doctors to get another note for my phased return for me and then I’m going to see my best friend for a nice cup of tea and chill before coming home.
I hope anyone reading this is having a good day and I’m sending you all hugs!